I’ve always been the fat kid

Well, thank God I’m tall that’s all I can say. I hide it well. You know when you where young and you had the fat kid in school, you laughed at him, made yourself feel good because you weren’t him. Well that’s me nice to meet you. I have ALWAYS been overweight, I was almost skinny one time in my life, and that was nice but I lost it. Now don’t get me wrong it’s not a “put down the fork issue” its a “I’ve always been this way issue.” I just have never been on the light side of the scale. As a kid I didn’t know how to deal with the harassment so I put my anger into reading, learning, and staying out of people’s way. Then I got to high school, I grew almost 2 in. a year and started to fill out and realized that I could use my size as an advantage. I know not the best way to solve my problems but it got people to shut up, and that was nice. This in turn got my the nick name “angry bear,” its funny now but not then. Then about my junior year I learn the best skill ever and use still today, sarcasm. YES this was my ticket, as soon as anyone would bring up the weight issue I would beat them senseless with a sarcasm stick, and not just to the point that they would stop, I would keep going till it hurt them, bad. Then I would go home and look in the mirror and realize I had become the same person that made fun of me. Well that made me feel like crap, so what to do? Well I guess I made up my mind to stop hurting other people and just pick on myself, which started a path of denial and bouts of depression. So fast forward to today, life is a hell of a lot better. I have a wife and son, I’m still working on the anger part and haven’t had any problems with physical violence sence high school, I just like helping people too much, BUT I’m still fat. So at the age of 26 I have made I commitment to myself to see what healthy really looks like. So here it is, starting tomorrow the challenge begins 100 lbs in 14 months. No more hiding my weight and denying I’m fat. I am 6′ 3″ and 292 lbs and 43% body fat today by Aug. of 2013 I want to be 200 lbs or close to (with muscle tone) and 10-15% body fat I think (I don’t know never been there). This will be a long path for me and I hope you all join me for it, time to get healthy.

2 thoughts on “I’ve always been the fat kid

    • Well you start at pound 1 and then go for another 99 🙂 there are some good calorie counts out there for smart phones that will help, I’m going to try p90x my mom said people are having good results from that. I hope you stick with it with me it always helps to do it with support

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